Here it is, another Mother's Day sneaking up. Should be happy but I don't seem to feel that way. Maybe I'm just getting old. Ha ha. I am.
Do you ever get the feeling of, I want to say depression, but it's really not. It's just a ho-hum mood I guess.
Not really happy the way things are going, but not sad. So hard to put a word or two on the way a person feels when they feel this way. Maybe I''m just not happy with myself. I think I should be doing more than I do, but then I think...Why. Guess I've always been that way. Never had it easy, had to do most everything myself, or if it's done, it's not done the way I think it should be. A perfectionist? No. Not hardly. I just think it should be more my way. Sounds weird huh.
My mind generally goes a million miles a minute, that's why I decided to blog. Hoping that I can clear some of the cobwebs from my brain. And get something going that's on a clear path.
Been trying to write something about my life. Think it's one of the hardest things I've ever done. It' is just sitting in my mind right now. Have a few notes on paper, but not enough to come to any conclusion or where to start. Already know the ending, or should say to date, but I can't seem to start from the beginning. Maybe I don't know where the beginning is. Will keep working on it.
Went to the poultry auction couple of weeks ago. have four chicks to care for. Do you ever think animals are your answer to life? Sometimes I do. It's kind of a mixed emotion. I need animals around me. But then sometimes I wonder what the heck I'm doing. Why do I want to tie myself down. Guess in some ways I need to concentrate on something beside myself and my personal problems. Other times I'd like to take a weeks vacation, but then I have my animals to care for. Actually they keep me sane and relaxed most of the time. It's really a toss up what to do.
Do you think I may be two people? Not really two different personalities, but one person living in two different time periods at once. Has anyone else ever had this problem? I wonder.
One thing I know I need to keep my sanity is ROOM. I need room to stretch out my things where I can find anything when I need it. If I have to move this or that to find it, I get frustrated and give up for awhile. Then another time, I want it again and go looking. Sometimes I give up, sometimes I keep trying to find it, but if I do, I soon lose interest. And I need to be able to see whats around me. No, not just look around, but literally see as far as I can without something in the way. Wide open spaces with nothing in sight. Makes my soul feel free I think. Go for the Gusto, do it, I guess I should be thinking, but hey, my brain isn't wired that way, it's to realistic but sometimes it miss-fires.
I think I have always lived in two time periods, and that's why I'm so confused all the time.
Crazy? Yeah, maybe. But I still like being me. I am unique, I doubt that there are many like me. I just wish I could come to some kind of a decision that would make my mind happier.
BL
Friday, May 6, 2016
Monday, May 2, 2016
Sorry everyone, I have been so negligent with blogging that I just haven't done it.
Hopefully I will try to write something once a week from now on. Well, lets say at least once a month to be safe.
I have been reading and listening to all the pros and cons on our up coming election. I'm not very happy with what has been going on, and I imagine you aren't either. One thing I know for sure, our government is taking as much advantage of us as it possibly can. No help for our Vets that have given part of their lives to help us be a free nation. No help for the senior, senior, (yes I meant to say it twice), citizens who worked all their lives to be able to live off of their retirement. Retirement you say. Yes. Money was taken out of each check and (was suppose to have) put into a trust that draws interest (Like a savings account) for our later years. But what happened? Congress, our politicians got greedy and decided that the money would benefit them more if they used it. (Who would know anyway, old people aren't smart enough to miss it, and would be probably be dead before they reached the age to get it). BUT, Congress needs a raise Now. And more money to travel on, and better schools for their kids and grand kids, and more security to keep them safe, and another house or two and the best health doctors and health care, and of course the best food and clothes money can buy. Oh, almost forgot...Vacations, just have to have longer vacations that the people pay for and the shorter the work week, the better.
I'm not saying that all came from social security, but to begin with it did. Now our government is taking from anyone and everyone it can. They are getting greedier day by day. Do they care about anyone outside of their precious circle?? NO, of course not.
And what's up with all these (so called) refugees that our president wants to support. HOW? Where is this money coming from? Is he going to personally sponsor them? If you think yes, you are out of your mind. He is taking YOUR hard earned money for those that don't support our country, our laws, our flag or anything else. Now don't go off in a tissy, Not all are like that. I think there is good in most people, but the ones that don't care are making it hard for the one's that do care and want to make America their home.
You know, at one time, I would have voted for Hillary, but she has changed. Sometimes I think she is scared of our present president and HIS people. What she Used to be against she is now doing. Bernie? well I think he has some great ideas, but his age>>>Yes his age. Who would take over if he couldn't finish his term? (Hey, him and I are the same age, so yeah, I wonder). I have kids, and grand kids that I worry about. I want them to have food on the table, a place to live and be safe. Sorry, but I don't think I would vote for Mr. Cruz, he reminds me to much of grandpa on the Munsters.
I think the American people should really start thinking of tomorrow. Not what they can get for free today. Just take a good look around you. Idiots, are trying to change our History. Our young people cry if they see something they don't like. "It offends them", Damn, a lot of things offends me but I'm not crying about it and I certainly don't need to be counselled every time I don't like something. Have more to say, but am going to stop here for awhile. Will finish later...........
Hopefully I will try to write something once a week from now on. Well, lets say at least once a month to be safe.
I have been reading and listening to all the pros and cons on our up coming election. I'm not very happy with what has been going on, and I imagine you aren't either. One thing I know for sure, our government is taking as much advantage of us as it possibly can. No help for our Vets that have given part of their lives to help us be a free nation. No help for the senior, senior, (yes I meant to say it twice), citizens who worked all their lives to be able to live off of their retirement. Retirement you say. Yes. Money was taken out of each check and (was suppose to have) put into a trust that draws interest (Like a savings account) for our later years. But what happened? Congress, our politicians got greedy and decided that the money would benefit them more if they used it. (Who would know anyway, old people aren't smart enough to miss it, and would be probably be dead before they reached the age to get it). BUT, Congress needs a raise Now. And more money to travel on, and better schools for their kids and grand kids, and more security to keep them safe, and another house or two and the best health doctors and health care, and of course the best food and clothes money can buy. Oh, almost forgot...Vacations, just have to have longer vacations that the people pay for and the shorter the work week, the better.
I'm not saying that all came from social security, but to begin with it did. Now our government is taking from anyone and everyone it can. They are getting greedier day by day. Do they care about anyone outside of their precious circle?? NO, of course not.
And what's up with all these (so called) refugees that our president wants to support. HOW? Where is this money coming from? Is he going to personally sponsor them? If you think yes, you are out of your mind. He is taking YOUR hard earned money for those that don't support our country, our laws, our flag or anything else. Now don't go off in a tissy, Not all are like that. I think there is good in most people, but the ones that don't care are making it hard for the one's that do care and want to make America their home.
You know, at one time, I would have voted for Hillary, but she has changed. Sometimes I think she is scared of our present president and HIS people. What she Used to be against she is now doing. Bernie? well I think he has some great ideas, but his age>>>Yes his age. Who would take over if he couldn't finish his term? (Hey, him and I are the same age, so yeah, I wonder). I have kids, and grand kids that I worry about. I want them to have food on the table, a place to live and be safe. Sorry, but I don't think I would vote for Mr. Cruz, he reminds me to much of grandpa on the Munsters.
I think the American people should really start thinking of tomorrow. Not what they can get for free today. Just take a good look around you. Idiots, are trying to change our History. Our young people cry if they see something they don't like. "It offends them", Damn, a lot of things offends me but I'm not crying about it and I certainly don't need to be counselled every time I don't like something. Have more to say, but am going to stop here for awhile. Will finish later...........
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